Just Let Me Sit Alone. Don’t Fix Me.

Last week, I felt waves of unease and anxiety crashing into me unexpectedly.

There wasn’t a clear reason I could point to. No trigger I could name… Just heaviness.

On Friday, it became too loud to ignore. I told my boyfriend, “I just need to go offline and be alone for a while.”

No big explanations. No need to make sense of it.

Just space.

I sat in my office. Then moved to lay in bed. Then back to sitting again.

Just silence. No music. No TV. No distractions.

He gently checked in on me a few times lovingly, caringly—asking if I needed anything or if there was something he could do.

I told him the truth:

“I just need to sit with myself. Alone. I’m not hiding anything from you. I’m just having a conversation with myself to understand what’s going on with my inner world. At the end of the day, it’s not your responsibility to make me happy. I know you do it out of love. But no matter how much you, family, or friends love me… I gotta feel enough on my own first. I don’t need motivation right now. Can I share with you after I regulate my emotions?”

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In that moment, I didn’t need motivation.

I didn’t need fixing, advice, or a solution.

I just needed space—to be, to breathe, and to feel whatever I was feeling. Without judgment.

I don’t need to feel happy all the time.

It’s okay to sit here with my sadness and my heaviness.

It’s essential for me to accept myself in this very moment.

Many times, healing isn’t pretty.

It’s not inspirational quotes or morning routines.

It’s curling up with your pain and letting it speak.

It’s choosing to stay with yourself, even when the world feels loud and your insides feel heavier than words.

So if you’re going through a tender season, I hope this lands gently in your heart.

You don’t need to explain yourself.

You don’t need to rush the process.

You don’t need to be anything other than exactly where you are.

Sit with yourself and let it be okay.